Let it Go!

I started this blog all because of a little precious miracle…Josie.

I was pregnant and decided to start “talking about it” and “recording every thing” for her.

Then life happened.

LIFE.

And all the in betweens…

Then I got pregnant again…(after life happened in between all that mess).

Then I lost my family…people died, I was dead to people, people became dead to me…

LIFE.

Then things got dirty and ugly and I turned ugly and negative and turned into bitter Barbie…ha!

Bitter. Bitter for too damn long. Oh goodness, did they steal my happiness for much too long.

Oh thank God for a sweet and loving, understanding husband whom “told me how it REALLY is” with my family and made me WAKE UP…

My deteriorating health made me wake up!

Ultimately, this blog turned into what I did NOT want it to…

The UGLY truth about my family…

The hidden secrets…EXPOSED!

So…

Here I am…

I’m changing all that.

Today is the first day of my last 90 days…

Today is the last day of my so called “therapy blog”…

And things have changed…

My goodness…I can close my eyes and smile so incredibly big with happy tears and remember that “feeling” I felt when Bobby and I became “one” (again)…and that’s when it started. And I look at us now and we’ve been through hell and back. We’ve been through so damn much. And we are so so so so strong as a couple. When he holds my hand and still tells me how incredible I am, how much he loves me more then life and how I am the best mother he could imagine to our daughters, it makes all this pain and trauma I have been through just blow off my shoulders and God takes it all. He has His hand open and says “give it to me, Stacy. Trust me. Believe in me. I am here for you. Let me take your pain.” And He is and He has.

During all this trauma…this pain…this fight…I discovered Him.

I have never felt closer to God then I do now. No matter what has happened. Good, bad, losing family, friends, etc.

Today…I KNOW God loves me. He is watching over us. He is teaching me strength I never thought I’d experience nor ever even knew exisited. He is amazing. He is HUGE! He is the brightest answer in the darkest moment of my life.

And I am so forever grateful he brought me to Him. He showed me the way and is still showing me. He showed me that if I’m weak, how to GROW! And oh! How I’ve grown…

He has showed me how to move. FEEL! LOVE! And most importantly…LET GO!

LET GO!

LET GO!

LET.you.go! Yes, you!

Stop, for goodness sake, STOP the words. The hurtful, hateful, painful, words. Just STOP!

STOP!

I have always been open to change. Open to being FREE from pain.

Recently, when Bobby took my hand and opened up to me about how important I am, how loved I am, how much I DO matter in this world…in HIS world…it shook MY world.

My goodness, I love that man. And God certainly blessed me with him and his love.

So…

This is it ya’ll…

No more. No more. No more!

I will not talk about “them”.

Just like he doesn’t want me to in our day-to-day lives…

I won’t here, either.

I am better than this.

I have been transformed!

So, let’s start over…

Welcome to my blog. My name is Stacy and I have two beautiful daughters and one amazing, one-of-a-kind, phenomenal husband-Robert. I’m not perfect, oh! No where near but I can love you. I can love you hard. And my life? It’s not perfect. But here it is…read on…

This.is.our.little.loving.growing.family…

WELCOME!

The Best Christmas Ever!

Christmas 2017…Best Christmas Ever!

My family came for Christmas this year. Bobby was offshore but the girls are too young to know the difference yet. Basically, Josie & Juliette had two Christmas celebrations, so one can’t complain, right? We had the best time! Or at least I know we did. It was so nice to have the company. We went to downtown Hard Rock Cafe one of the days, because my mom and uncle were really untested in getting some Houston apparel as a keepsake. And I even was able to get a Christmas Ornament for our tree to remember the time they came to see us. It was fun! We also visited Old Town Spring, which is close to our home. It’s a quiet place where there are small shops all up and down several streets. It’s super cute and old/vintage. A perfect event if you need something fun to do. We bought shirts, drank sangria and walked around checking out all the boutiques. I’d love to go back again since we weren’t able to visit all places because nap time comes quick!

I can’t thank them enough for giving us those memories. They’ll never understand how much it meant to me that they took time away from their family to spend Christmas with us in Texas so we wouldn’t have to be alone. It was the best. The company, the laughs, the memories, the dinners! I really, really enjoyed it so much. If you’re reading this-I love you guys so much.

After family left, it snowed in HOUSTON! It was incredible, ya’ll! I grew up in Michigan, so snow is not new to me. Yet, my children haven’t seen snow. I had to wake Josie up early in the morning and show her the snow. She touched it, played in it and every day for several weeks just kept asking “where did the snow go, mama?” We even found a local neighbor who made a snowman and we drove over to his section of the neighborhood just so she could see a real snowman! So much fun!

Of course we made a ton of Christmas crafts throughout the season and even made some new ornaments for the tree. A very talented neighbor made the girls unicorn ornaments with their names on it. Y’all know I’m all about ornaments with memories behind them. They are so precious!

For the first time in over a year, I was able to get out of the house for a few hours with my mom friends. Thanks for my Aunt Cindy who came and hung out while the girls slept, I carpooled to The Woodlands for an ornament exchange dinner with my friends. It was so much fun and so nice seeing everyone without kids. And actually being able to hold a conversation.

This Christmas it was very important to me to bless others because that is what I love to do. Anyone that knows me, knows I love to give. This year I made those that reached out to me, visited us, took the time to gather a care package for us, all while Juliette spent two weeks in Children’s hospital during Halloween. If you showed love, I just wanted you to know how much you were appreciated and how deep my gratitude goes. Not just with a gift, but in my heart! I will never forget that. I love you all for being so graceful and helpful and so sweet to us. Knowing that I have those people in my life willing to always step up, makes this life so much easier. I have the BEST neighbors and friends and group of people I can really depend on. I really hope ya’ll enjoyed your homemade gifts.

Bobby came home and we celebrated. Of course, just like every year (when we say we won’t), we spoiled the heck our of each other. Especially the girls. Maybe next year we can find someone to put us on a budget or do the shopping for us so we don’t get out of hand as usual.

In memory of my Grandma. I love you Grandma. Merry Christmas in Heaven.

 

I got my Apple Watch!

And Daddy bought Josie her first piano with piano lessons to come…it sounds so beautiful. Reminds me of my childhood with my Grandpa.

 

  

I discovered Matilda Jane Clothing this winter. And I guess you can say that we’ve got sort of an obsession. I love these clothes ya’ll! They are high quality and super buttery soft. I have a few things for me, but for the most part, I filled my girls closets with the love of Matilda Jane. Thanks to my trunk keeper (and recent friend), she’s helped me find the perfect pieces to fit both of them. If you’re interested in the cute, precious clothing that my girls are wearing check out Jennifers MJ Trunk VIP page here: Jennifer’s Matilda Jane Independent Trunk Keeper #3327. She’s so super sweet and has a TON and I mean a TON of giveaways all the time. She is one that loves to bless others. Merry Texas Christmas Ya’ll!