30 Days of Thanks: Day 13

My sister.  We did everything together.  And I mean everything.  We had too.  All we had was each other.  We went through every bad phase together.  Fought pretty much every day.  Hated each other most of the time, but loved each other just as much, if not more.  We made it through together.  We were stuck wearing and doing things we never approved, but did it anyway, together.  Christmas’ at Grandma’s house were the best.  Although, we were forced to wear some of Grandma’s clothes, makeup and hair curlers (see photos).  But I won’t lie, we really enjoyed that part.  It was so much fun.  I was lucky enough that I was too small, too short and most of Grandma’s clothes just didn’t fit me.  Rachel, on the other hand, everything fit her-so every year, she wore Grandmas clothes.

My sister looked out for me 24/7.  She cared about me when no one did.  She took care of me when no one did.  She watched over me when no one did.  She held my hand, wiped my tears and made me laugh when no one did.  My sister was my best friend.  Still is my best friend.  And sadly, it hurts every single day when I realize how very far away I am from her.  Being in Texas is hard.  But going through this pregnancy without her is harder.  Not having my mother or sister here to help me pick out names, styles, furniture, decorate and truly enjoy this pregnancy hurts my heart more than I can handle.  I miss my sister.  We always have the best time together.  We always laugh, a lot.  With her, I know I can be me. With her, I know she will never judge.  She’s accepted me in times where she shouldn’t have.  She’s loved me unconditionally and forgave me in times where I was unforgiveable.  I know that I will always have this unbreakable bond with her.  That no one can break, ever.

I miss you Rachel.  I cannot express to you how much it hurts being so far away and how much I truly miss you and need you around most days.  Thank you for always being my rock, having my back, sticking up for me and being the best friend a growing little girl could ask for.  We had the best of times.  Playing Barbie’s, cars, house and then the boys came along (uh oh!).  We’ve been through and seen it all.  I’m very thankful for you, our relationship and our friendship.  So today, I’m thankful for Rachel, my sister and best friend.  I love you.