How far along: 30 Weeks. Whoa! I don’t know what it is about saying “I’m 30 weeks pregnant, only 10 more weeks (or less).” that got me so bent out of shape this week. It somehow got me thinking about everything that still needs to be done and worry about things that I have no control over.
How big is baby: About 3+ lbs. and 17+ inches long. (I’ll find out her real measurements this week!)
Total weight gain: 26+ lbs. total, I don’t really know the actual number this week, my doctor’s appointment is on Wednesday.
Maternity Clothes: Yes, I thought I was starting to grow out of my maternity jeans, but I think that was just a day of excessive swelling.
Sleep: I struggled with insomnia at the beginning of the week. I barely slept for those 3 days in a row. My mind was racing of all the things that still needed to be done, bought and put together before Josie comes.
Best moment of the week: Mom’s coming in town tonight! A few items from Etsy were delivered and added to her nursery. And Bobby and I drove all the way to Buy Buy Baby and bought her car seat and other things.
Food Cravings: Nothing particular.
Food Aversions: Nothing.
Symptoms: Aching back! Insomnia, itchy skin (not nearly as bad as it was), acne, swelling and sore (very sore) legs and feet (especially my right heel). Oh yeah, the pregnancy brain. I cannot remember anything! I thought the only way I could eliminate some of the anxiety I was feeling (or what I think might have been keeping me up at night) was to work on eliminating the stressors. Therefore, I started my hospital bag, bought my hospital gowns online, went to Macy’s and got a robe, nursing nightgowns, bigger underwear, an outfit for the baby shower and ordered my slippers off Amazon. I picked up a few necessities from Target (pads, tucks, hard candies, gum) and we finally got her car seat and extra base from Buy Buy Baby.
Mood: Blessed, thankful, excited, anxious and scared to fly pregnant.
Movement: She is so active! I felt hiccups for the first time this week. That was so cute!
What I’m looking forward to: Seeing Josie on Wednesday on an ultrasound, going to Michigan on Thursday, the baby shower on Saturday and seeing all my friends and family. I really wish my two best friends could be there, or at least one or the other but neither of them are coming, sadly. I know it’s life and sometimes it’s just not possible, but I just wish they could come.
What I miss: The warm weather is here…I just don’t know if it’s here to stay.
Side note: I’m feeling a little sad about coming to Michigan when things are as screwed up as they are with my dad, my grandparents and my mother-in-law. Mostly, just feeling sad that they all have ZERO interest in little Josie. So with much thought about that this week, Joel Osteen leaves me with this quote and I think it very much fit the situation. Have a great week everyone!
“It’s easy to go through life looking in the rear-view mirror. Focused on what didn’t work out, on who hurt us, on the mistakes we’ve made. As long as you’re living in regrets, focused on the negative things of the past, it’s going to keep you from the bright future God has in store. You’ve got to let go of what didn’t work out, let go of hurts and pains, let go of your disappointments, your failures. You can’t do anything about the past, but you can do something about right now. Whether it happened 20 years ago, or 20 minutes ago, let it go and move forward. If you keep bringing negative baggage from yesterday, into today, it will poison your future. You may have had an unfair past, I’m not debating that, but what I am saying, is that you do not have to have an unfair future. You may have got off to a rough start at life, but it’s not about how you start off that matters, it’s how you finish.”-Joel Osteen