My First Mother’s Day & A Thank You To My Mom

Today is Mother’s Day.

And I’d first like to start off this post by saying Thank You to my very own Mother. For she is not only an amazing mother but the best best friend I could ever, ever ask for.

It wasn’t until April 7, 2014 that I could truly understand the love she has for me, my sister and my brother. And all the sacrifices she made seem so much bigger now than they did before I became a mother myself. I never knew unconditional love like I do now. I never knew that her tears of pain when I was in pain, until now. My mother is an amazing woman. So strong and full of so much love to give. I cannot even begin to express my gratitude for all her hard work raising each of us and all the ups and downs she had to face to get where we all are today. And the generous heart she has. My oh my I can’t even begin to describe. If she won the lottery she’d buy everyone else what they wanted first just to see them smile. She always put her self second. Always. And I feel like I’ve won the lottery by having her as my mom. My best friend. I love you mom. Thank you for the many years of being you. I appreciate you. So much more today because I am a mom now too.

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn’t worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming baby
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn’t want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn’t know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

I woke up to “no babe, you go back to sleep, get some rest, I’ll take care of Josie.” That was what my husband said when Josie woke us with her coo’s letting us know that she was ready to start the day.

I woke up to homemade blueberry pancakes a few hours later.

He knows I can’t sleep my morning away. It’s my most favorite part of the day. I appreciated his thoughtfulness as well as the beautiful flowers and beautiful card(s) he gave me. My husband has made it perfectly clear that mommy’s don’t do dishes on Mother’s Day. Nor do they cook or clean. I was told to take it easy and go out and run my errands I’ve been wanting to do. Which I did. But of course, missed my baby girl so much so that I couldn’t possibly wait to get back home.

My first Mother’s Day.

A complete success.

I am so blessed to have the best husband ever and a beautiful baby girl.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mom’s out there. New ones too. And even those that are doing it alone. So often I tell myself: “I don’t know what I’d do without my husband”. This job, as a mother, is no easy job. So for those single mom’s out there to be taking this road alone, I truly admire you.