Adventures of a mama who has miscarried…3 times. Why so many strips/tests? PROGRESSION! Why so many in one day? It’s all about the science behind it! Knowing when and what time your body double/triples in hCG. This is a sign of a progressing pregnancy. At the top we started on 7/28 and towards the bottom we landed at today 8/6 (which looks like a double/triple from last night because the line is much darker). The strip right above it was 12 hours ago. So while I was sleeping (or trying to with a sick 10-month-old), this baby was growing. Usually this is tracked by a blood test as well (which I’m also doing). I am scheduled tomorrow for my third re-check. But it’s much more mind easing when I can also track it at home. When Amazon sells packs of 50-100 pregnancy tests, do you ever wonder “why so many? Who will actually use all those?!” People like me. People who’ve experienced loss. People who can’t rest until they know baby is safe and thriving as he/she should. I’m not crazy, I’m just in tune! Besides, it saves me the $35 co-pay and the trip to the doctors all the while hauling my kids there. Peace of mind y’all. It puts my anxiety in check. That’s what this is about. You won’t understand, unless you’ve experienced loss yourself. I’m happy to share my journey into motherhood with y’all for the third time.
Let’s do this!
How far along? 31 weeks.
Size of baby: The size of a head of coconut.
Stretch marks: None.
Nursery: Finally decided that Josie will continue to stay downstairs with the big room and her own bathroom. Juliette will be upstairs in the Hollywood bathroom but in the room that actually has the bathroom connected. So each girl will have their own bathroom. We are still trying to unpack and get organized so decorating their rooms is at the bottom of the list.
Maternity clothes: Nothing new. I wish I could walk around nude here, it’s so damn hot.
Sleep: Awful! I have had the WORST contractions. I was really starting to worry that they were more than BHC. I’m waiting to see my doctor next week and I’m going to ask her to check my cervix.
Best moment the week: Bobby came home AND Josie transitioned to her toddler bed. No fuss, no problems and is sleeping just fine it in (although we’re only on day 3 now). I’m so proud of my little monster. She does just fine (so far).
Food cravings: Mexican food.
Food aversions: Not much that I can think of.
Symptoms: Awful sleep, constant BHC. I’m so tired all the time. My boobs are starting to get more sensitive. Juliette moves so dang much it’s almost annoying. She is always, always moving. It seriously scares me that she won’t sleep when she makes her way into the world.
Mood: Tired. So tired of being tired.
Movement: Never ending movement!
What I’m looking forward to: Feeling less anxious…
What I miss: Energy!
How far along? 10 weeks.
Size of baby: The size of a kumquat.
Weight gain: 117 lbs, I think?
Stretch marks: Not yet but I feel huge!
Gender: Still not sure.
Nursery: After week 18 I’ll consider thinking about this.
Maternity clothes: I NEED new clothes.
Sleep: No complaints.
Best moment the week: My mom came to visit and Josie had an absolute blast. She certainly loves her “me me”. We miss her already… Oh yeah, Josie said “sorry” for the first time this week. She said it to my mom after she accidentally ran her foot over with her little shopping cart.
Food cravings: Strawberry ice cream. Fatty foods and nachos. I woke up one morning and made nachos for breakfast at 8am. Don’t judge.
Food aversions: My stomach doesn’t do well with beef, pork or chicken. I think I’m going to stay away from these until further notice.
Symptoms: Lots of bloating. It’s VERY uncomfortable. Lots of belching and air in my stomach. I finally bought some GasX and that seems to help. Also eating about 4 Tums a day. My chin and neck are breaking out pretty badly. I expected this. I was started on a prescription cream called Finacea. I’ll see in a few weeks if it’s helping. I’m still doing progesterone suppositories every night so hopefully when that ends (Week 14), it will clear a little. My stomach constantly hurts whether I’m hungry or full. I can’t win. We attempted Disney but the walking was just too much for me right now. I think I’ll take my doctors order and “take it easy”.
Mood: Calm. Relaxed and grateful I had a few days with my mom.
Movement: Gas, bloating and still no luck with the doppler.
What I’m looking forward to: Bobby coming back home and it to stay warm out.
What I miss: Bobby and my family…